As much as I want to stay positive the symptoms I've been feeling keep me restless and worried. I had an appointment with my doctor a week ago to discuss the abnormalities of the lab work done to me. I not only have anemia, but high cholesterol and high thyroid hormones which means I have hyperthyroidism. Hyperthyroidism is the one causing my fast heart rate. My heart rate at rest is 115, the normal range is between 60-100. If that isn't enough I'm constantly having skipped/premature heart beats. I was referred to a endocrinologist (a specialist of the endocrine system) to see how they can treat me but the problem is that my appt. isn't till May 9. I'm constantly worried that this might be affecting the baby or worse it might lead to thyroid storm which is a life-threatening condition that could lead to coma or death. I'm worried that I might have a heart attack any minute because of the elevated heart rate. There are just too many things going on with my body at times I don't even know if it's from pregnancy or some other illnesses. I have never prayed as much in my life as much as I've been praying now. I pray everytime I get a chance. I don't want the baby to have health complications once he/she is born. I sometimes blame myself for all the things the baby and I are going through. If anything ever happens to the baby I don't even know how I could ever forgive myself. I hope and pray that everything will turn out fine. All I could do now is wait and pray and stop worrying because I know stress can affect the baby too. I want to stay positive not think about the symptoms so I keep myself busy watching TV or playing with the girls. I have to keep myself busy so that I won't think about it too much.
Jewelle turned 3 yesterday. We went to church then we ate out. They wanted to see the Golden Gate Bridge again so we took them there but during the drive they both fell asleep lol. We then went home, their Lola cooked spaghetti and fruit salad. Then we bought her a cake. It was just a simple celebration because of all the happenings but I know she enjoyed it especially the gifts from Lolo & lola. But the little girl had fever during the night and she has rashes all over her face. She can't even sleep all through the night because of the itch. So tomorrow I'm taking her to the doctor to get some medicine for her rashes. Since I wasn't feeling well last night I went to sleep early because I had such a terrible headache so I wasn't able to answer Rico's call. He wanted to greet his baby a happy birthday. At least he left a voicemail so I played that to Jewelle.
Anyways, I'm off to bed. I'm a little sleepy. Thanks for reading!
